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please show this to my mum when i passed on

ibu.
adek dah lama nak bilang ibu sesuatu
tapi ibu selalu tak beri adek peluang..
peluang untuk berkata-kata
ibu, i love u ibu,adek sayang ibu
ibu orang terpenting dalam hidup adek
tanpa sokongan ibu
adek berputus untuk menghentikan semuanye
adek nak minta maaaf atas dosa2 adek
adek harap ibu maafkan adek
adek akan rindu ibu
adek buat semua ni
supaye ibu tak terseksa
jage anak tak bergune
anak derhake
adek ingin ibu menjalani hidup tanpa membuang tenage
membuang tenage berleter kan seorang anak yang tak berguna
maafakan adek ye ibu
adek sayang ibu
akhir kate
assalamualikum

opppssss
sorie guys for not blogging.....
well
the past few days
were the days where i really smiled and laugh to the max
like super max

aniwae
on the 24 of august
we actually had a foursome outing
inclusive of me,kimchi,mariah and fauzianna
it was my treat aniwae
all of us went to escape theme park and took the rides there
i treated them to food as well
then hakim said,
"wahhh this is like the first day i go out totally free lah!!!"
it was okay with me
coz i used vouchers what....
i am really thankful to have close friends like them(:
had fun really really fun(:

on the 26 of august
abg treated me, kakak,oly(dehwee and sariman din come down due to some reasons)
to chicken rice
we had all sorts of jokes arh while eating the chicken rice
and apparently
me
who dosen't
really know
how to
tear a chicken properly
found one of it
flying on to the table
but ya had fun and thanx for the treat abg(:
we will meet again guys(:

on the 27 of august
got ready to go to CHALET!
with the MCG-IANS
i wasnt really having fun because of some reasons
but trust me
there is nothing going on between me and someone
i know u people who went to the chalet
would think that SOMETHING IS GOING ON
but NOTHING is going on...
i swear
okaylah for a matter of fact right(lets label the person X)
X actions freaks me out
like
please respect me
i know his actions might be sweet to some of u
but to me
IT FREAKS ME OUT
IM FREAKING OUT OKAYYYYYY
but
everything was fine lah at the chalet
since i had so many people around me
phew
at least i had those i could run to..
im really like trying my best not to be mean
like
as in
i duno lah pfft -_-"""
chalet was fine except for that
i like the "TUKI TUKI GAME"
we played that game at 1 plus in the morning
super fun and funny
okaylah
ill end my post here
just to say sumthing arh
im like SOOOOO SCARED OF GOING TO SCHOOLL
REALLY I SWEAR
im like avoiding 3-4 guys
like seriously me who has never been afraid of guys
is like BEING FREAKED OUT BY GUYS
okay enuf nisah
nites peeplings chaos(:

hey peeplingssss
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!

well
i found not really new friends
i found friends who can make me laugh my ass off again
friends who i can study with
frenz who are like way older than me
but
they make me forget my misery


my dearest kakak-JULYHA
she used to be the only girl hanging out with them
age-19
nice sweet looking
petite

X-FACTOR
she is the pincher in the group
has a abg in the grp
and he always get bullied


to my new found abang- SOLIHIN!!/AWIN
one of the guys there
age-25
okay looking very lame very funny
has a good voice

X-FACTOR
he is the one who is found to be most matured but lame
the one who always takes my slipper
the one who studies and bed and fall asleep
the one who is able to make silly jokes
the one who brings guitar(which makes us more discourage to study)

the one whom i always disturb-ROLYPOLYOLY/OLYGOPOLY
awin's bestfriend
age-24
the one who cannot pronounce "R" properly
the who hid my slipper
the one who laughs till he cries

X-FACTOR
letter "R"
the zipper(inside joke)
reactions that are seemingly priceless always made by him
very very very retarded

the prank planner-SARIMAN/DOREAMAN
all three guys are bestfriends lahhhhh
age-25
very funny guy
the "boost" fan
laugh at super duper lame jokes

X-FACTOR
producers the almest jokes
has the biggest apettite
which makes us crave for the same food
always get pinched by kakak
45 degreesss(omgawd he is so gonna kill me)
his laughter

the quiet guy-HIDAYAT
quiet
but when he laughs its super loud
always doing his work
smiles frequently

X-FACTOR
i duno
dun really know him
sorieeee

I ALSO HAVE ANOTHER BUNCH OF FRENZ

ZULAIKA
-known as ZU hates it when u call her BAm
-VERY FUNNY
have "nasi" at the side of her lips
very cool
very sexy
very happening

AFAM
-known as afam/apam balik
-likes suffling
HATES CHEESE
always with his hp for music
i think he likes trans
very hip
very cool
very man(not sure)

FARHANA
-known as NANA or we call her roti_syndrome/roti_gal
HATES BREAD
funny girl
study girl
LOVES BANGLA_HER BF
very nice
very happening
very cina

QISTINA
-known as QIS
-always flirting with my husband(inside joke)
very cute(petite)
very fun
very lovely

RAIHANA
known as RAI
more like my close friend/sister
good time manager
the one with lame jokes
very cute
very noisy
very happening

ROSLEILA
more known as leila
more like my close friend/sister
the one getting As
the one whom i can talk to abt some personal stuff
very nice
very lovely
very talented

MALIK
known as malik
leila's bf
not taller than leila
the one who always do stupid stuff out of boredom
HATES CHEESE
very nice
very friendly
very funny


the fun bunch whom i hang out with this days
gonna miss them for like more than one month):
non-theless im gald for your time people(:
love u guys so much(:

hey peeplings
well sumtimes i guess you just cant keep on trying
sumtimes u just have to go with the flow
though u will keep on thinking abt it
u ust have to let it go
its hard
but slowly it will
i just need time
i just need strength
i just need those close to me
i just need what i have right now
to pull me through the journey
this journey called life

he likes me
he likes me
i like him
but he dun like me
but
i dun care
as long as he knows
as long as he is well
im okay with it
im fine with it
just hope that he gets what he wants in life now
coz i know he dosen't used to get any in his past

just wish him all the best and
all i want is
to have my fren back..
if telling u
how i felt was a mistake to u
im sorry
but yeah

im sorry for ignoring u
im sorry for making u feel as though u are invisible
but
i can do nothing abt it
i have pride
as have feelings
i know the feeling of how to be ashamed
and i dun know how to push it away
if u wanna me to stop this feeling
i cant
coz i duno how to make a feeeling stop
sorry boy
just be sure that if u need sum1 ill be here(:
but i know u wont be able to read this
u dun even know the url
its okae
okae lah
ive manage to let it out
now back to mugging(:
exam for marketing
is tomorow(:
chaos peeplings

in the afternoon.
i was at the library.

for a reason i don't know.
the library was damn pack.

just happens that leila had to charge her laptop.
the power plug was just too far.
so i dunno why.
i just had itchy butt and legs
so i had to just move to somewhere.
so i stood up
took my wallet and my admin card.
walked.

PIAK!

the next thing i realise i was like looking at leila's charger.
there were countless pairs of eyes on me.
soooo embarassing!.
luckily no one laughed.
malu nyer.
sorry . sorry . sorry.
pluged in her charger. placed back all the rubbish in the bin.
and walked away.

towards the centre wing.
found a nice book.
AND I BORROWED IT!
me borrowing a book.
WOW!
amazing thing okay.

today is hanif's birthday.
like finally he is 17.
it was a long wait.
take care of my twin okay!
if u dun u die.

okay im back to blogging
i feel lifted
coz there are some things that are settled.
stuff that i would never could settle alone

i guess lifes improving
with me studying and realy toning down
thats what you guys want right?
a toned down nisah
so sorie if i dun talk much

i duno myself
i duno who i really am
i tell u
i will want sumone to understand me better than i do
i duno what i want
there are lots i cant figure out
i dun even know who's that girl living my life
is life to hard for me to handle?
is life meant to be this way?
am i strong?
i duno
i truly duno
i can just express tru music i guess

u know..
i tot
that feeling
would go away
bt i dunno why i miss u so
though ive given up on you already
but why
why do i still think of u?
isit
normal?
i hate this feeling
i really do
but i cant help it
your always the reason
if i knew this was gonna happen
i wouldnt have
seriously i wouldnt.
i guess this post ends here

happy birthday singapore
43 years of meaningful and fast pacing developement
for a small country like ours
is really extraodinary
some attitudes are needed to lead singapore or infact any country
to somewhere it is to there
id rather be from nowhere to sumwhere
den nowhere to nowhere
so yeap continue to grow yeah singapore(:

i now know the meaning of a phrase
or instead a feeling or an attitude that ive had before

"the more playful a girl is, the less are the chances..
for her to reveal her true feelings"

i found out its true
it really is
it was what i used to be..
cheerful playful and cheeky

but
now im no longer of those stated above
im changed
but i still will be
to those i have feelings for'
to those i love
so im back to giving my hero out there qoutes(:

where are u?
each and every post of my yearns for u
im nto desperate
just need sum1 to talk to when im down
sum1 to hug and comfort me
a shoulder for me to lean on when im sleepy
a listening ear who will listen to all my crap
entertain me
scold me for being wrong
tell me how i should go abt in this life
show me
to the path of guidance
be my guardian
be my angel
my heart beats so fast
even though i dun know u
as im typing this
i feel as if im on cloud nine
i forget my sorrows
and i smile
from ear to ear
i need sum1 who will hug me
and never let me go
even if i ask u to
dun u dare let me go boy..
coz
whereever you are
whoever u are
i love you

well today
i guess its a great day
got some new things in my wardrobe

G2000
1. a new formal top-29 bucks
2. a new formal pants-29 bucks

had a G2000 blazer that i bought for 80 bucks last time
so in short
I HAVE ONE FULL SUIT

I HAVE SATISFIED JOHN HO RITE(:

well i guess
i really understand the song better in time now
it really means sumthing to me
i hope i can bring that song one day

im done with my powerpoint
so glad so happy
but ive yet to come up iwth an idea abt the advertisement
haiz
maybe tomorow morning
haiz
here i am procrastinating again
insyallah everything is gonna be donw tomorow
and tomorow's presentation will go well (i hope)
insyallah amin amin amin!

got mum to buy for me famous amos cookies.
love u mum
u always give me what i want
thought u will nag first =x

its funny how ive forgotten the real meaning of happiness
i guess
time will tell
insyallah
but i will always try
try to pull myself back together and overcome this setback
i know i will
coz ive been tru too much to give up

happiness might be just another word in the dictionary now for me
but it will be a huge word for me in the future
i know it will
okae
i gtg now
tomorow
presentation
mcg training for castings
chaos and nites peeplings

life sucks now big time

i guess lifes better now
with me not ruining people reputation
lifes better with me
just with my close friends
my classmates.

i am very sensitive about stuff
i know i am
i am born to be like it
and u cant change it

i guess
ill make drastic actions
for the best of everyone
and especially
me

i shall now pursue my love for archery
and singing
maybe i should join soccer
i guess some people know what i am talking about
its hard
but
for the best
im letting both go
so no hard feelings
no arguments
no saying that i choose one over the other.

well
live is not all about friends
i can live without some
but for some i can't
well yeah
i do miss those days
where laughter were in the air
those days when i could hear u guys from far
but gone are those days
and i shall move on
for the best(:

alhamdullilah
so far ive failed only one ica
but
i still am not satified
i wanna get As and Bs
NOT Cs and Ds
im chionging in sem 2
to get those grades that i want
to get a good gpa
and to move on to university insyallah
(:

so guys
im just waiting
for the right time
to burst the news
to all
to all that are needed to know
i will miss that stage
i will miss it
im sorie
but



loving means letting go(: