a dose stage arters.
keeps me smiling the whole day.
yes yes i love you stage arters(:

today was a nice day.
because it was lunch with amalina
meet up with stage arters.
jokes with kakak.
talk with kakak
trip home with syu.
yes yes. it was a great day to me
simple.

because right now.
i like the way my life is.
simple.
and i dun wish for everyone to love me
or like me
just a couple of people will do.
people like them
and they know i am talking abt them.
thank you so much(:

and yes. tomorow stage arts again
i dun mind meeting them everyday.
so i am looking forward to tomorow
nites peeplings(:

it was an eye-opening experience.
and i have another aim in life now.
and yes i am trying to relate it to my career in future.
i have to earn money first before i can do anything
or maybe i can start now.
and i shall not tell u what my aim is (:


today.
i am very tired.
i am happy.
i was quiet.
super duper quiet.
until it came to buying SHOES!
yes yes i bough shoes. (:
so i am a happy happy girl.

okay so in short.
what cheered me up today was
mum.
shoes.
bobbing of the ferry.
the clear blue sky.
the white non-puffy clouds.
and my book(:

yeap yeap
so moving on
its been a while since i have been caught up with this song
and i always forget to place the lyrics here. EVERYDAY!

david archuleta-you can

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things
come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself,
you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes ofsomeone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one I've been dreamin' of.
If anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love...

Only you can take me sailin'in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself, It's you and no one else.

If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Show me that good things
come to those who wait

nites peeplings(:

coz in a few hours.

ill be otw to batam.

to see those kids.

i wish they had parents

just like mine.

because i feel blessed(:

i hope mum dosent tear.

because when she does.

and i see it

i will tear.

it just starts flowing like nobody's business.

oh man

im just super vulnerable can.

okay,i am starting to love facebook

and btw. should it be the formal shirt or the cardigen.

bro brought from KL and ask me to pick one.

one for me and one for sis.

oh gosh.

help me please.

and sometimes.

when a miracle or two happens

it confuses me alot more.

yes.

it does.

i think ill just concentrate on orientation performances.

club crawl

cca

friends and my lovely gfs.

yeap

thats what ill do.

nites peeplings

yes. i had an amazing lunch with this two(:
thank you so much k(:

and yes i am quite sad that i couldnt make it to dance session today.

because i have confirmed that i could attend speech day.

but there is still tomorow right(:

and ill make sure ill smile throughout tomorow.

shahidah and me(:

and below is the picture that i love for the day.

its been a long while since we have pictures like this kakak.

im just so glad to have u back.

and all i want to think right now is abt u

because thats what i excel at.

thinking for others.

and i will be there when u need me.

because even if u try to walk away from me this time round,

i will not let it happen.

never.

we will be forever like this.

and nothing or noone can seperate us sisters.

i love you like nobody's business.

p/s: this is so random but. I NEED TO BUY SHOES FOR MYSELF.

because.
yesterday was the day.
we understood each other more.
deeper.
yes no matter what happens
i still love you and i will always be there for you.
babe, u can do it.

so it was a lunch date with atikah.
okay first.
when she saw me she hugged me.
den she pulled me to ljs
den we hugged in ljs.
i bet everyone there must be thinking that we are lesbians.
but honestly i dun mind if it was real.

coz right now.
i really feel like shit.
just shit alright.
no, i am not crying.
i just cant cry anymore.
because i cant feel anything.

we had lunch.
den we went out to esplanade.
because i just need to have time and space.
to just stare and ponder.

thats when.
i let it all out.
we let it all out.
we did not care who was around us.
we just had to do it.

i just hope u are alrite dear.
see u on saturday.

well everything went well today.
i even had a chance to borrow a new book(:
i just hope that we will get back to normal.
i just hope i will.

i am so sorry if its been too wordy lately.
i am just not in the mood to camwhore.
just that i realise everyone's going through
a rough patch in their lifes.
we can all do it okay(:
jia you!

and right now.
ill get back to drowning myself .
in books.
so nite peeplings(;

lyna: "are u happy?"
me:" i will be if i see everyone happy"
lyna:" no, i am asking u are u happy?"
i just kept my mouth shut.
because i duno what was my answer to that question.

and thank you, you two.
for today.

thank you mar and tik.
for all those words.
i am touched i swear.
i feel blessed with friends like you girls
syukur alhamdullilah.
i am sorry if i disappoint u girls a lil.
but i cant put up that facade anymore.
im really sorry.

and i guess its time.
nites peeplings(;

today everything was back to normal.
no more hectic schedule.

yes.
whenever i feel troubled.
i drown myself.
in things i don't like to do,
or i rarely do.

and as from today.
ill drown it in books.

and whenever i start thinking of stuff i am not suppose to
ill just start flipping the pages.

and i feel that its been a long time since i had time to relax.
maybe tomorow would be a great day.
i just need somewhere.
nice. beautiful. peaceful.

and its been a while since i had that long bus ride.
and its been a while since i let everything out.
its been a while since i pondered abt stuff.
maybe tomorow.
maybe wednesday.
maybe never
maybe's are all i have right now.

and nothings for certain.
i only know that the best people on earth are there for me.
thank you.

15 march - 22 march
a short period of time
whereby so many things happen.
in my life.

it was the hectic for sure.
but i lasted.
for one whole week of travelling back and forth.
the emotional rollercoaster ride.
the smile, frown, joy, sadness, tears, pain.
everything in one week.

honestly i duno where to start first.
lets start of with camp.
yes. camp was great for me.
with all the people who once watched me grow.
its amazing how fast time flies.
i wish i was back there.
in that same parade square.
doing footdrill.
and having what i thought the most tiring thing ever.
how i wished i had treasure those moments.
i just miss them ):
and yes. i love you seniors(;

during camp.
i had to run back and forth.
to go to stage arts meet ups(:
yes i dun mind.
to do that to be with the loveliest people on earth(:
who accept me for who i am.
sorry i just couldnt turn up on wednesday.
because i break camp at 4pm. =X
and honestly i think i din contribute much.
i am so sorry =X

it was all stage arts then.
memorising bimbotic lines.
research and everything.

sorry soundcard
i couldnt turn up for this weeks training.
because i have my stage arts assessment.
hope you guys understand(:
and i know noone likes me ard.

there are some things that i wanna say
but i cant bring myself to write it down.
maybe i just want to treat as if nothing happen.
as if everything was a lie.
thats what ill do.
maybe just for now.

and yes.
i have something precious back in my life.
months of wait was worth it.
i believe everything happens for a reason
and i believe that this will make our bond stronger.
thank you. (:
and this time round.
ill be there for you.
no matter what happens.
ill be there alright.

and i want to thank my lovely jebon
for being there.
when noone was there.
and i am sorry if i wasnt really there when u needed me.
when u are always there when i needed you.
i will be okay.
i will be.

and to my beloved team A.
thank you. u guys are the best k(:
gd luck for the results k drama peeps(:
this applies to every single one of u both team A and B(:

sometimes i just don't understand why some people.
just have to keep on digging the past back out.
just keep it there can.
ill stay quiet while i still have patience.
u very well know how scary i can get.
so don't try me okay(:

and flirts should just drop and die.
like right now.
for hurting my jebon.
f**king idiot.

ill end it with three
1) patience is a virtue
2) good things come to people who wait
3) and if it is meant for you, it will come back to you.
nites peeplings.

yes.
date with syuhada on friday was great(:
even before 5 mintues we met up,
we already got lost and laughed our ass off(;

apparently we watched PUSH instead of COMING SOON.
because syu is gonna watched that with her friends(:

i love her.
i really do.
she is always there.
she reminds me so much you, hid.
but she is same age as me(:
yes hid i miss u to the core.

so in short. friday was great(:

let me tell what happen today before i show the pictures alrite(:
TODAY HAD DRAMA AGAINN(:
but it wasnt games day.
it was discussion of assesment storyline and characters.
okay TEAM A PEEPS!
i need you guys to be online on sunday(15 march) at around 10 pm.
at night okay.
we will have a discussion okay. about props and everything
we already have the characters and storyline.
we will tell you guys more inside the convo k(:

back to today.
after drama.
me, nadeen, kaye and neela.
went to mellinia walk to support nicholas and amin(:
you guys rock the stage mannnzzz.
yeap. and i had a good time with the three of them(:

so now friday's pictures alrite.
sorry i editted it.
LOL

so i will end today's post(:

and i was messing around with picnik so nite peeplings(;

my 201st post.
HAHAHAH.

okay right now i am dead beat.
but i am looking at movies and its timeslots.
because i am gonna watch movie with syuhada!!
Finally she could set some time for me. ):
HAHAHA

ouh ouh.
and i was abt to watch the thriller of coming soon.
a ghost movie all by myself at this timing.
den it struck me that its gonna scare the shit out of me.
so i closed that window.
LOL

okay i tell you what happen kkkkk.

TODAYYYY
i went for soundcard(:
yes yes i am happy everytime i go there.
because i can see those whom i want to(:

after that.
there was stage arts.
it was a combination of drama and dance together.
HOW COOL IS THAT??!!
and i swear.
i can dance the whole nite.
forgetting all my worries.
forgetting how hungry i am.
forgetting abt how i look.
just dance and dance and dance.
OUH OUH. DRAMA WAS AWESOOOOMMMEEEE.
and i can't wait for saturday to come(:

okay okay.
enough of me and my soundcard.
and my stage arts.

i am just dead beat.
so yeap. can't wait to meet syuhada.
nites peeplings(;

wednesday.
was a nice change.
a day where i woke at 11am. how lovely(:
it was 2 hours added to the usual timing 9am.
i woke up fresh. as if i had dreamt of something pretty.

and for once. wednesday i did something different.
thank goodness.
i feel super fresh now.

in a few hours time.
i will be meeting beautiful people.
and i know it will be a great day ahead of me(:

and now i have three ulcers at the left side of my mouth.
gosh. its hard to smile widely with ulcers u know.

i am someone who worries about the smallest things ever.
even if that person isn't someone close to my heart.
even if that person isn't someone i like.
i just wish that person will be alright(:
and i hope things are fine bro.

its the past that brings you to where u are today.
and i am thankful for what i have and get.
i am happy where i am today.
thank you.

and now i am wondering why i wrote those stuff above.
and now.
i wanna turn in.
so nite peeplings(:

today was a day to date someone.
date with SHAHIDAH!!
spongebob friend(;

i love rainy days
so to me it was a perfect day(:
so met up with her in the rain.
ate at pastamania.
i dun really like paastamania. kinda wierd taste of pasta's.
but i am not stopping anyone from trying(:
just be lucky and pick the rite pasta's okay(;

and after that, met abg awin for a while.
because i miss talking to him.
met abg's erhem erhem also..
i must say not bad arh abg(;
and like finally it's a malay! HAHAHAHA
and abg.. I WANT MY KEYCHAIN ON THURSDAY!!
MUST MUST MUST BRING OKAYYYYYY!
see ya in school.
thank you for all the smiles and bubble tea today(:

everythings nice and pretty with your loved ones around(;
and thursday is double wait triple happiness.
because its soundcard, you, and stage arts(:
oh my goodness. i so can't wait!
i miss you ):
i miss stage arters
i miss soundcarderss!!!

and i miss twin.
hope to see u soon really ):
youve been so caught up with jc work load.

okay okay enough
tomorow is trip out of house with mum(:
because i duno where we are going.
i can't wait!

yes yes. i feel so much better
and trust me
i am not gonna take anymore nonsense from any freaks anymore
and noone can bring me down from now on.
you guys have to try harder.

so nites peeplings(;

saturday morning was great as usual(:

followed by saturday afternoon.(:

double happiness

but it was all different when it came to saturday evening.

and the rain just made me more emotional than ever.

i just don't understand

this past few days.

i have been having mood swings.

severe mood swings.

no. i am not having menses rite now.

i lose my patience so quickly

so easily

i have been rude.

i dun mean to. really

i find myself staring into space.

looking at the sky.

there is something wrong

but i can't figure out what

and its affecting me

too much.

and i feel feverish.

i feel weak.

maybe there are just too many things on my mind.

and i am unable to sort them out.

i think i better go out tomorow.

instead of staying at home

i duno what else to say.

i just feel so sick.

and please stop bugging me

nites peeplings.

i have had enough of the pain i went through

and you deserve to just drop and die.

motherf***er!

p/s: thank god u know i am refering to u.

and now i am all alone at home

while the rest of my family have headed down to cp macs.

because i am sooo lazy and full to eat anymore

so i will blog abt today(:

awesomest 3(:

we headed down to cvss at 10am lah.

soo early even my mum was nagging at me =X

so it was all filled with laughters today(;

with them i am not afraid to let me out.

the real me(:

and the reason we headed down to cvss is to eat mee soto!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

we laughed and laughed and laughed till our stomach and head hurts

and we met alot of teachers(:

when they asked us why are we in cvss,

we said... to eat lor, we miss the canteen food(;

and they will give us that look.

and some teachers still remember our names

and they were amazed we still kept in contact

though all four all us are from 4 different schools.

SP, TP, NYP, RP

apparently we always dun camwhore much

thats because mariah and hakim dun like to

unlike me and fauzianna(;

let me just stop writing and let the pictures do the talking okay(;

toilet level 1, damn dirty.
me and mariah duno staring at what.

the camwhore-er of the gang. fauzianna.*eh who is that at the back?*

okay fine its me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

reminds me of old times catching wereby all of us will hide in cubicles.

putting our legs up! HAHAHA

me, fauzianna and mariah(;

its the girls toilet what do u expect?

omgawd look at my expression! priceless!

finally a decent photo of me and fauzianna. and i swear i dun edit my photos =X
i look soooo fair in photos so not like me.

clown =X

apparently we girls, have a problem.

when we have our period and we dun have sanitary pads,

we will rush down to this toilet, to dig out some,

using our hands.

and i was trying again the same old trick.

and yes i still have the skill and got one just now(;

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i love you!

presenting HAKIMMMM! hahahahaha. he skipped class!

his design of a potato peeler. he needs to put in more effort i must say.

hakim shy shy onlyyyyy. for 6 years he has always been hanging out with girls.

but trust me he is straight.

his observation drawing. haiyoooooo. HAHAHAHHA

meeeee sotooooooooo. still taste the same i swear.

our favourite hang out.

someone must have broke the wood lahh. den replace different colour wthhhh.

and i am still waiting my hp to vibrate.

because i duno whether you are already here.

please tell me now and i will be relieved.

and thoughts just keep on haunting me.

i duno why.

someone just slap me please.

thats all i have got to say.

nites peeplings(;

p/s: someone help me get rid of this addiction of the song energy by keri hilson.

first of all happy birthday to the tallest friend i have! NADEEN!!

still dare to lie to me that u are now 21. thx arh!

well hope you enjoyed your 18th birthday.

just wait for our birthday bash for you this saturday alrite(;

and so apparently today i had a date with crazy amalina.

we just had lunch(:

and yes though it was just for a while

i enjoyed spending time with you(:

thank you amalina(:

you made my day(:

so let the pictures do the talking alrite(;

i miss those 3 rite now):
friday come quick(:

so i will have two events to lookforward and countdown to(:

thats all ive got to say

nites peeplings(;

so today there were some change of plans

and i went out with marlinah and atikah instead.

we just had a simple lunch and talk for a while.

but that made my day(:

and those two just can't stop quarelling can they?

and they will blame me for making them argue -_-""'

okay less talk and more pictures(:
marlinahhhhnext to marlinah is atikah. i am forbidden to upload her portrait because it was unglam =X they are the ones who were there when i was down on saturdays(:

and that is how i look now. shit man my hair!

anyway. for you please take care.

i hope four days will pass by fast.

so i wont have to like keep thinking how u are doing.

i will miss you ):

jia you nisah 4days is nothing(:

have a safe trip there and back okay(:

for both you and abg(:

take care loves.

so nite peeplings ):