i shall blog good stuff...

i drank two red bull...
its nice..
very nice.....

i freaked ppl out....

AND


I WANNA CHANGE...

i wan be the quiet old me...

okay i shall update on good stuff...

i have new shoe..(bought by sister in law to be)
i have new bag(bought by brother eh adidas u know!! 80 ringgit)
i have new stuff that u dun wanna know...
I HAVE NEW NEW NEW THINGS..
THAT U MIGHT NOT HAVE..

but u are neva old stuff to me..
COZ UR MY FRENZ..
FRENZ DUN GO OLD..
BUT WE GROW OLD TOGETHER!!
okae2 MEREPEK NISAH!!!!!

confusion!

okae i shall blog abt todae...


actually..
todae...
THERE IS NO SKOL FOR SBM STUDENTS....
BUT
i had to go to skol and act as if there is skol coz i wanted to go out...

so i went to skol at 11..
reach at 11 plus..
i den went to library..
saw darling he was on his way out..
so din tok to him coz he got class..

saw MARION!!!
SHE WAS THERE TILL 12
den she had to leave..
i was left alone

den
SHAHRUM CAME TO THE RESCUE!!!
he came at 12plus lah..
i duno wat tyme..
den at 1 plus darling,adib,cmc and another fren came in again..-___-'''
shahrum went off for fridae prayers...

den they played guitar and i felt like dying...
dey left at 2..
shahrum came back at 2.10 i think...

yar den went down eat..
saw ilham..
eat together
but he wasnt eating macs..
he was just eating two bars of oats i think
yar
i was like
DIET KEPE????!!!
WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA
den we ate..
ilham left...
den i got to know RAUDHAH..SHAHRUMS FREN...
i became damn sarcastic...
she was laughing like mad lah..
shahrum always kana from me..
sorie shahrum but i know u had fun..
hehe

den darling came...
went off
to amk hub..
decided to watch CHOCOLATE!!!
ROCK SIA THE MOVIE..
I LOVED IT...
TOTALLY ACTION PACKED...
den..
it ended at 720 i thnk..
decided to go back skol..

FOR JAM AND HOP!!
went there...
DANCE AT 8 PLUS TILL 9...
DEN HAD TO GO HOME):
coz it was late and i had enuf of popping for the dae....

in conclusion...
TODAE WAS FUN..

happy 1 month anniversary(:
love u..
thx for all the support..
fine fine..
i be the chocolate ice cream..
u be the cone okae
fine..
aniwae
yar

AND HID!!
WHY DIN U MSG ME??!!!
IM GONNA KILL U!!!!
WAT KIND OF TWIN ARE U??
nemai..
i shall forgive u..
(:




dats the end...
dadidumdum
dadidumdum(:

wow im like so happpy(:
because i SCREWED UP EVERYTHING!!!
I SCREWED UP AT HOME!!! I HAVE NO MUM!!! NO MUM DOSENT HAVE ME!!!
I SCREWED UP IN SCHOOL!!!
MY PROJECT OR WATSOEVA...SHE WAS SO AGAINST IT OKAY...
IM LIKE BLODDY HAPPY..
SERIOUSLY IM LIKE BLODDY HAPPY FUCKING HAPPY!!!

HAPPY HAPPY...
CERTAINLY NOT..
I LOVE MY MUM
LOVE MY DAD
LOVE MY FREINDS
LOVE MY FAMILY
LOVE MY DARLING
LOVE MY EVERYTHING...
BUT THERE IS SUMTHING I HATE

I HATE ME!!!!!!

i hate me..thx arh hanisah thx alot

okay im blogging abt yesterdae..
i was just too tired to blog abt yesterdae,yesterdae...

well guess wat..
im sick again
i was like so well yesterday.
why??
WHY LAH SEH!!!
coz allah wans me to be sick..
its all in the takdir..
cobaan...

aniwae
yesterday we watched movie at 630 instead of 450 as there were no seats..
watched CONGKAK..
its suppose to be scary but i was laughing my ass off there..
hantu berak!!
wakakakakakakaka
mepek siol..
den fierah was like so freaked out of the bapuks there..
fir send her home...
ouh and yar..

to fir:
thx for fetching me from sengkang to woodlands..thank u so much(:
i appreciaate it..

continuing to my story..
urm yar.
i joined them for dinner..
but i wasnt eating..just with them chitchatting..
yar yesterdae was really fun..
i just dun wan to elaborate..
so naggy..
okay..
MORNINGZ!!!!!
see ya tonite peeplings!

blogging todae...

thx for the concern people..
im seriously okay(:
urm glad u guys are concern i thot u wodnt be...

to my bf...
please dun sae thing like that..
his no u..
he is nothing like u..
im sattisfied with wat ive got k(:
i love u(:

to a fren(fir)
thx for insisting on fetching me..
i appreciate it..
thx fren(:

i went to the doctor todae..
im sick..
been vomitting..
dun worry im not pregnant or stuff..wakakakakakaka
im just sick..
im better now..
after the pills and stuff..
im fine(;

okay i guess im turning in...
kinda sad dy cant join...
but nemai theres always a next tyme rite dy?(:
okay lah..
turning in..
chaos(: nites bloggies and earthlings(:

will anyone ever understand what i am going tru???
will u ever understand...
ill tell u noone will ever understand me..

when i tell u abt sumthing that i am sad abt..
i dun like it when u change the topic coz im still crying at the point of time....
be the shoulder for me to lean on..please
let me cry my heart out..
hug me tight dun ever let me go

and darling i dun give my blog link because..
idun wan u to know abt tis..
i dunw an u to be worried..
u have ur own set of problems and im willing to share that..
my problems are my secrets from u..
im sorie but i have to do tis....

well maybe im losing my focus in life...
i need people to talk to...
maybe i shud go for counselling...
i neeed help..
im aware of it..
but u wans to help?
u reading my post?
i know u said u wan..
but i know u wont...
i know..

i understand how quiet ive been..
how fragile ive been...
but i cant stop it...
ill be happy at a moment...
and sad at the next..
i really hope u understand..

seiously i need hugs rite now...
i need a shoulder to cry on..to lean on..to sleep on...
i need my friends...FRIENDS BESIDE ME NOW..
TO LISTEN TO ME...
LISTEN UP PEOPLE..LISTEN
i need u guys...
i may seem insecure i am i know..
this is because no one understands me...
behind my laughter behind that smile...
noone knows how many liter of tears i hide...
noone freaking cares...
noone...

thx for the memories thx for forgeting me and congrats for finding a replacement of me...
CONGRATULATIONS....
i lost in the game if life..
ill neva ever win in it..

well well
i guess im just friends in ur eyes..
just A FRIEND...
nothing more than that...

when u guys go out..
always the five of u..
just THE FIVE OF U
u guys ARE A CLIQUE..
im no way near u guys..
not even close..

well i know where i stand..
suddenly i feel so lonely..
with no past close friends with me...
but why??
maybe bcoz im JUST A FREN
im just a passerby in ur lifes..
and im bloody aware of it...

im glad ur happie with each others company..
maybe with me ard itll just spoil all the fun..rite??
i know
i really do..
but sincerely thx
for being my frenz for the past 4 years..
thx..
i guess u guys still think im strong heh..
wateva arh..
hack care..
5 GO 50 COME
dah arh
malas arh ehk nak fikir..
im just forgettable arh ...
even my name..
myabe even my name dosent exist in ur mind animore...

i guess the same thing will happen in three years down the road...
the same ppl ard me will just leave me

i guess i really believe in this line for now...

FRENS..
THEY COME..AS AND WHEN THEY LIKE..
THEY GO..AS AND WHEN THEY LIKE..
its just life..
for a moment..
everyone is ard u..
and another..
only a handful left..
they come..
but u just dun know when theyll leave u...

just let me dream for this three years..
and by the end oof it..
wake me up..
so that ill realise that its time for u to go...
farewell.......my fren

im back to blogging..
okay todae skol was fine
everything went smoothly..

but when it comes to mcg time..
i was SUPER SUCKY...
DAMN DAMN SUCKY..
i duno why lah
i was so soft just now
and i din exaggerate my actions..
GARH!!!!!
I HATE TIS WHEN IT HAPPENS..
ILL DO MY BEST NEXT MONDAY.
just hope tomorow will be better..

now im worried abt wat to sae to stage arts ppl..
im so scared that i will be dissapointing them..
im sorie guys..
if i stay or if i go either way i lose..
im so sorie...
gonna miss u guys..
and anjana..i really hope u wont hate me for making this decision..
please dun tell mr azhar..
(:
i love both but i havve to let go..
bye..love

wah nisah blogging todae...
amazing rite..i know

i read zizi's blog yesterday..
when he saed 'those times'
i just teared...

it was those times when i cud smile sincerely..
it was those times when i cud laugh my all...
it was those times that i din realise how lucky i was
it was those times..
THOSE TIMES

i miss u guys so much..
seriously i do..

remember when we hated the teachers of malay department..
remember where our gathering spot after skol??
remember how we used to squeeze at that one table?
remember how we laughed at the sec 1 who were like damn selenger??
remember the times when we searched for each other tru the entire skol??
remember when we always go cp to slack??
remember when we came back from cp on a particular dae..doing a one line kambing thingy b4 mt asp???(kambing line)
remember how how hard we studied?
remember the faces of each of us when we had a bad hair dae??
remember those times we had to queue in that bloody long queue??
and how we scolded vulgarities to those hu cut queues???
remember the times when we immitated how mrs ang spoke??
"chechers"??
remember those times when we ate together??(the mee soto rocks)
remember those times when we played in the rain??
well probably u dun reme,ber all but ill be glad if u remembered just one..
coz i remembered all this stuff we used to do..
i remember how closed we used to be...
i remember u....
i remember u guys..
we might be in diff skol..
but wat i know is u will be forever in my heart..in my mind..
ill bring the memories along with me till the second i haled my last breathe...
ill remember how all of us had each other to llean on when we are down..
i remember how we sang to irritate everyone..

we will meet up agn soon rite??
u were the ppl hu enlightened my daes in secondary skol
mariah, fauzianna, saleha, azura, azizi, haziqah, sabril, haslinda, shahshah, adib, hakim
syuhaidah,merishah,vivian chin, siewgek, heather, peishan, sally, chewsian, MRS TAN, weiguang,waikoing, weikai, afiqah,safira,nadia,zahidah,irene, dora, farhan, khairul, XUAN LE, nicole, cheryl teo, jing wen and the list goes ON and ON.......

THX PPL for being there for me during those times..
i love u..
i seriously do.
AND THX TWIN(HIDAYAH)
AND THX LOVE(DY)
when i sae i love..
i really do..

KU MENYAYANGI TIADA KU KESALI..BAGIKU TRELALU INDAH SETIAP DETIK BERSAMA
IN ENGLISH....
loving u with no regrets and each moment with u is too beautiful too be described in words..

thx for the memories(: love u always

back to blogging again(:
so sorie guys ive not been updating my blog...

well i wasnt in a good mood just now..
probably thats why i said all that stuff arh..
oh yah...HAPPY WORLD RED CROSS DAY!!!!!
hmm
how i wished i cud slip that uniform on and march into the parade ground of cvss again..
i seriously miss those times..
nah im not emoing..
juz looking back on stuff(:

i miss hidayah..
i hope she is doing fine..
ayumi asked me to go japan..
i feel like booking a ticket and taking the flight there now...
but i guess im still too young and immature to be trusted my mom):

tomorow is stage arts nite..
and i duno wat to wear
the theme is like
WACKY COLOURS(:
im suppose to look wacky..
but i just cant seem to dress up wackyly..

mcg or stage arts???
i got into sound card and i confirm wan it...
i wan that vocal training..
all i need to do now is decide on one drama cca..
but i cant seem to decide..
but ive decided to go for both for a few weeks..
and see which one i prefer(;
ppl are persuading me not to let go of mcg..
i wan to be there..
but my mind saes stage arts is better..
so which one shud i go??
follow my heart or my mind??
i duno
I HATE BEING INDECISIVE!!!
it just puts me in a dilema):
nemai2
ill just go with the flow..
and mum dosen know im in like 3 ccas..
nyehehehehehe
i hid it from her...

okay gtg..
(looking at the wardrobe standing as if i have a date to go..i started tearing down my whole wardrobe..in a few seconds..everything was out...all around me...then came mom..STARING AT ME AND THE CONDITION OF MY ROOM..WAT IS GOING ON???[she shouted] finally i realise i was in deep2 trouble the naggings continued on and on tru out the nite..)

NAH IM JUST PRPEDICTING WAT WILL HAPPEN IF I WERE TO TEAR DOWN MY WARDROBE..NEYEHEHEHEHEHE

okay its been sucha long time since i blogged
im so sorie i have been busy
and u shud know my lazyness...

well lifes been okay and fine..
but wat i am tired is..
im tired of waiiting..
i keep waiting and waiting and waiting..

shy do i have to wait
coz we have diff timings
and i hate it...
come on man
like can be more gentleman anort..
i dun blame him arh
its not his fault
its our timetables fault..
and hu set the timetable...NYP
so its NYPs fault..
im blaming nyp for it..

and i guess ppl just misunderstand me froma first look..
and i totally hate it..
i feel as if like going home rite now..
LIKE RITE NOW!!!

im tired of waiting..
ive been hearing the word wait since like i was born..
and seriously i dun wish to hear that word again..
its just bloody damn irritating..
i know im selfish lah
i cant wait for ppl
but ppl can wait for me
DAMN SELFISH
but thats just me..
u cant change the person i am todae..
or tomorow
at least i am me
im perfectly imperfect