okay i know. i did not update for like ages i apologize. hehe

anyway i have been having meetings with some people like almost everyday.

i love it. because its fun. and not stressful.

we get things done in a fun way. cool rite.

okay okay anyway

i tell u all a secret okay.

i hanisah hasim was being influenced by my group of friends.

TO SHEESHA(:

damn cool i swear.

i know its more harmful than smoking but at least its not addictive.

its not as if i sheesha every week or everyday.

its like rare lahh.

i am still a nice girl okay(:

*pukes*

but yeah. but the thing that is NOT FAIR.

is that

I DID NOT GET HIGH EVEN THOUGH I TOOK PUFFS THAT WERE WAY BIGGER OR DEEPER THAN NADHIRAH'S OR JULYHA'S YET I HANISAH HASIM DID NOT GET HIGGHHHHHH! THEY DID.

WHICH IS SOOO NOT FAIR TO THE MEGA MAXSZXXSZXZXZSXZSXZ!

hmph. nevermind. maybe i am just born hyper. ):

photos are yet to be uploaded as my camera is not with me. maybe next week.

okay. i have to get started on marcom tutorial.

nites peeplings(:

school. i love it because of the people.
okay. i am so gonna enjoy entrepreneurship because of miss karen chia. she is very sunny(:

oh yes. did i tell u i have problems reaching on time for classes
because it starts at like 8AM.
i am so gonna get kicked out of the course because of my attendance if i never try to wake up way earlier.
STOP SNOOZING UR PHONE NISAH!

german german. im excited(:
okay i shall go and sleep now(:

because some people they duno hwo to appreciate things until their gone. when will u ever wake up and stop hurting her?

because its dead. thats why.
it feels way worst than being heartbroken.
at least if its broken u can mend it.

i am happy with what i have. living my life to the fullest.
turning everything down to something that could make me stand up again.
and now i am so used to setbacks. that i use them to move further.
further then before.
because i dun wan to be held back by something so dumb.
lets all count them as eyecandy's and everything will be just fine(:

but.
ive not been able to hold my temper well.
i keep flaring up so easily.
but as easy as that. when i meet the people i love.
i will just laugh it off
and everything will go away.

its just that im scared of being alone.
when im alone.
i start to cry. about nothing at all.
i duno whats wrong
i shall go and find out soon.

anywa
IM TRULY EXCITED FOR SATURDAY!!
RAYE OUTING WITH STAGE ARTSSSSSXSXSZXZSXZXSZ!
OKAY OKAY i shall contain my excitement.
save it for saturday.
OKAY NITES PEOPLESXSZXSZXZ!

okay. no more straight hair.
no more long hair.
and dun laugh at me.
this is how i look now. (:

raya outing with sc was fun(:
photos at facebook.

there is always a reason
reason for someone to not remember something from the past
maybe they do remember
but its just deep inside.
the memory was just too painful for them to keep rewinding in their heads
okay dun mind me
i am just feeling abit pissed.

ever did something good and got scolding for it
well i get it all the time
but sometimes its just too much that i cant handle it
ego. ego. ego.
i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
and when i say things three times i mean it
do what u want. i am so not gonna care about you.

closed. thats for sure.
no more. everythings a lie.
i dun wanna share.
only with those loved ones
the only one i can trust.
im sick and tired of it.
lies suck.

nope u dun have to understand this post.
only i need to. because i only truly trust me and my twin.
nites

how do u knock someone to say hey! ur soulmates green with envy. buzz off!
i truly have no idea.

6 oct 0001-2359
i enjoyed it all. from the start till the end. thank u for the wishes
thank u for the cake.
thank u for the thought.
thank u(:

chalet for me was from 6 oct till 8 oct
it was really fun. really nice to spend days with them.
from talking nonsensical to serious stuff.
the bbq sessions.
the mahjong games
the heart attack games.
the movie trip
i enjoyed it. i did(:

i am just someone you wouldnt notice.

You lie inside your head. Your thoughts confuse you, and you would rather be anyone else than yourself.

You convince yourself of things that aren't true. You might think you are ugly, stupid, mean, or annoying, when you are actually none of those things.

You constantly put yourself down and convince yourself that you don't deserve anything good. You don't hear compliments and when people give you one, you deny it.

You give others the compliments you wish you could give yourself, but when you think of who you are, only the negative comes to mind.

It is possible you are paranoid about what others are saying about you behind your back, or are trying to match yourself to an impossible standard.

There might have been someone in your life who put you down so much you actually started to believe it. Trust me, if you think you are a bad person, you most likely aren't.

Bad people think they are good, otherwise they wouldn't be as mean.You lie because you mistake it for the truth.

When others tell you positive things about yourself, you often just believe they are lying to make you feel better. In actuality, they are telling the truth and you are lying to yourself.

Your weakness are the people who don't openly compliment you, but truly believe you are amazing anyway.

Their compliments are along the lines of "You make me feel happy" or "You are my everything." A lot of people find these cheesy, but these are the compliments that allow you to feel good about yourself for who you are.

When people tell you good things about themselves and tell you it's all because of you, the dark lies you tell yourself seem to float away.

this is how i lie.

i learned something new something about myself. how about u?

okay. this week.
was a beee-zee week for me.

first was jalan raye with cvss peeps.
followed by jalan raye with jebons
not forgetting everyday jalan raye at nite with family.
later i need to wake up early in the morning to wear my baju kurung for madrasah.
then go out for jalan raya again
sunday i will have to go to johor for jalan raya again.

MY LEGS ARE DYINGGGGGGG!
SOMEONE SAVE ME!!

on second thoughts.
i look forward to next week(:
*winks* you know why

i shall turn in now.
nites peeps.
OUH OUH
PHOTOS ON FACEBOOK(: