Gerry Kennedy: Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

i want a man like that. maybe not someone who will die soon after we got married but someone who appreciates me for who i am.

urgh i should just shut up.

because i know illusions never change into something real.

dreams never come true.

ouh. HAPPY NEW YEAR(:

welcome 2010!

I can't wait for 2010.

I just want to get over and done with 2009.

It will be a new year. full of new resolutions.

so watch out for my resolutions later on k(:

Happy is a simple word.

a simple expression with a simple meaning.

but today. in my dictionary

the whole meaning has changed.

ah heck. why should i care about myself anyway.

This year i've learnt the meaning to emotions.

happy.

sad.

love

trust

weak

strong

most importantly.

i learn the meaning of love and friendship

okay maybe i shall stop bullshiting and put up my resolutions okay(:

Resolution 10'

1. lose weight

2. be happy

3. stay happy if i could be happy

4. imagine every guy is a girl

5. make my friends happy

6. play sports

7. go to lesbian clubs(without my parents knowing)

8. study

9. know myself

10. make my parents proud(:

short and sweet huh.

sorry i am sexist.

no offence huh.

okay. singapore idol 09 is going to be revealed soon.

and me being sexist u know who i want to win.

so drumrolls peeps!

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and its

Sezairi Sezali

well congrats.

Sylvia Ratonel

you are still my idol.

i love you okay(:

okay i shall do my work now.

Thank you to those who made me smile during 2009.

If u have yet to make me smile,

there is still time man(:

so i want to make use of the rest of 09 to make u guys smile.

take care peeps.

and smile always.

You value your friendships: 80%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Nosy Level: 60%

You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

Jealousy Level: 40%

You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy

You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

the type of woman.

He's the typical guy that you normally would see in today's society, nothing too spectacular. In fact, you really have to concentrate in picking him out among the crowd. He's also easy going, has a sophisticated taste. He isn't boring or anything like that. Just that he would tend to be a little humble, has his own independent views, but keeps it to himself. If the situation requires, he can step forward and really make an impression on others.

The woman of his dream must not be the helpless lady type or too conservative, but must be a fighter with high perseverance. Women who are the fragile type or too ladylike are definitely not to his taste. She must be committed to overcome any obstacle in building up a family with him. Those from a rich family is definitely out. He prefers women whose fortune are self-made. This type of guy isn't selfish at all, but a real social contributor one can say. Don't worry, his requirements aren't really that high, you may pass the test you know.

your hidden talent

The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

that dream guy

He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

my reaction

You recover quickly from disappointment. But when you feel that things are going wrong, you will react immediately.

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.

survival

Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.

the house

You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

okay maybe i should stop now.

i am just so bored.

i don't know what to do actually.

btw. something random,

i actually miss having to see a msg on my phone every morning.

today, i received none.

kinda sad. but yeah. (:

this post has nothing to do with anyone. its just me, myself and i. thanx(:

there is something i wanna do real bad

but i will have to wait for next year

in the mean time let me just countdown

365 days

and i am really excited for that moment

merry christmas everyone(:

well i guess december is coming to an end very soon

this was or is still a month full of downs instead of ups.

sometimes i wish i could change the way i handle things

i am sorry my temper is always the one that blow things up.

i love you.

i love you.

and i still do love you.

i was just too touch about how u were so kind and caring towards me

that i became so disappointed in myself.

yes i know im silly

i am a stupid bitch.

i think i must go for anger management classes

and i am sorry.

so updates for december. not in order okay

it was the last drama session and it was a surprise for nic's birthday. so cute right(:

and then came Events Night 09.

Events Night 09. Something unexpected happen and i was given a post. yes. With power comes responsibility and i shall do my best. Thank you for the opportunity.

Then came the lepak session on the next day. NYEHE.

And we went down to IKEA after our first drama session conducted by the two drama heads Sarah Jane and Hazwan. fun trip to buy stuff for clubroom hehe.

yeap. december oh december.

lets welcome 2010.

watch out for my resolutions(:

and i everything's gonna be alright. i know.