very happy
very satisfied

all thanx to those who helped supported and gave comments(:
really love you loads(:
u made it possible for me to perform guys(:
thanx to
stage arter's
julyha, hanaffi, neela, sheila, jack, suma, sarah
hazwan, arati, farah, david, iman, nadeen, yana bikini
yatasha, kaye, nadiah, yana sexy, unice and many many more.

as well as
my darling leila and her boyfriend malik for being there(:

not forgetting raihana
who helped me and accompanied me during my 2 hours
of practice(:

SYG U ALL VERY MUCH(:
only god knows how thankful i have you guys
by my side
i know i can nver express my gratitude with just the word thank u
but really guys!
THANK U(:

so now its just hours away to the halloween preformance(:
really cant wait

and yesterday was someone's birthday(:

IT WAS FAUZIANNA'S!!!!!
she is the most loyal friend you can ever find
she is the kind yet evil at the same time
she is the quiet but crazy girl
she is everything that u will want to have in a perfect bestfriend(:
she is just her
just being herself impress me
hope she will have the best ahead of her
and always smile alright fauzianna(:
i love you(;
me mariah and kimchi will always be here for u(:

this is my 101 post

so here i go
today
i prove to someone
i forgotten
and moved on with life
awkward situation but funny
it will happen again

so get used to it bastard(:
you'll see me everywhere
coz i told u you wud live
to regret it and now
i dun wanna make u feel bad(:

today was souncard meeting
had fun with shikin syuhadah and fadzli
singing at SHS block k
funny and fun(:

din go for stage arts today
coz i tot i shud prepare for
soundcard since i have yet to prepare(:
im not gonna tell u whhat song im singing(:
its a surprise(:

happy happy smile smile
101 post with more smiles
im smiling wider and wider
happy i guess(:
trust me
this time i really am(:

F**k those guys who call me auntie
who the heck they think they are?
they are older than me yet the call me "auntie"
what a label.

one of the reasons why
i hate the opposite gender
is because they are
INSENSITIVE JERKS

they just dun care how we feel do they
come on
no one likes to be called aunties or uncles
stupid jerks

and ya
sometimes
fate just makes u wonder
why did something like that happen
not once
not twice
BUT THRICE

but i guess
lets not wonder
coz it will somehow give you hope
i shall not give myself hopes
so i shall stop thinking abt it(:

felt good today
with three hours of intense discussion
on storyboarding
it seems that we are somewhat prepared for ica2
haha
feels good to know that two of ur icas are done(:
2 down
2 more to go
here i come week four !(:

yes true i fear
i fear to fall
coz im doubting if anione would catch me
i really am

call me a coward
i swear i no longer care
i dun wanna get back to that same old feeling
i admit
i am a coward

coz ive just lost the hope
hopes of finding someone whom i can trust
ive given up
i really do

i will live tru my life
with the current people that i trust
that i love
no longer believe in new
no longer believe in me
no longer believe in u

its easy for them to say
move further forward
but the person to take the step forward
is afraid of falling ever again
nope not any further

all i need now is change
i will never place ani hope
not a single strand of it
in the opposite gender
coz they will just crush my dreams
at the end of each scene

now its just me myself and i
and i will keep on smiling no matter what
i will cry and laugh at the same time
coz its the things that makes me laugh
always
makes me cry.

connected protected(:

sometimes i duno what im feeling
okay im such a confused person i know
so please allow me to rant alright(:

aniwae
sometimes you will feel useless
scared and all of those insecurites
that is always there to pull u back
well thats when someone special comes into place
thats when u will find the one
who will help u tru all that shit
the one whom teases u day and nite
the one who can make u laugh and cry at the same time
and yet i still have yet to find the special one

and
how many of those out there have confidence?
do you have confidence? well i dun seem to have
scared of being looked at on stage
the high expectations of ur friends and audience
just gives u a shiver down ur spine aite?
the life of a performer is to be on stage and have fun
i have fun on stage but at the same time
just freaks me out i guess
too self-concious

at times
having to know of what u SHOULD do
what u WANT to do
is two different things
i learn that
u can try doing what u should do
u can turn out to be a great person of what
everyone wants u to be
but you'll just be living ur life as a loser
coz u dun get to do what u want
TRUENESS...
but
i also learn
u can try doing what u WANT to do
high possibilities that you will not succeed
but there is still a possibility isnt it..
true. in life u dun always get what u want
but sometimes what u need is
what others decide for u
let u take u decide ur life
dun let ur life decide on u

some people just get caught in between
they don't know whether to follow the heart
or the mind
i guess
to me its just a balance of both
u work hard
u play hard
but u really have a passion
u want to make it as a source of income
go for it, sure u will succeed if u are sincere
as a friend,
we can never change ur mind
but we can always support u in whatever u do(:
jia you nicki(:
work doubly hard but not OVERHARD(:
hope u get well soon alrite(:

all the time
the opposite gender never understand
they just see a picture of the present
and the past
but never the future
dun they ever think of it?
will they ever be rational?
maybe i am the irrational one
maybe its just me
high expectations i guess
but nah
now
no more
i have something against them
sorry but yeah

but in the end
i know
i will get connected to someone
and protected by that someone
so i'll just keep on smiling(:

why isit am i not girly?
why isit am i not beautiful?
why isit am i not nice?

why am i total opposites
of what a girl usually is
i want to be like them

have someone to care about
and someone to care for u
loving and being loved in return

it looks like
most of my frenz are in love
while im just out and sick of it

not really sick of love
just sick of guys
sick of those sweet nothings
that they never meant

argh

lets just go on wth life
with a huge big smile(:

its every girl's dream
maybe not everyone
maybe every commoner's dream

i've always dreamt
of
one day when i suddenly wake up
i realise
i wasnt me
but a princess me
with a restroom the size of my bedroom
a wardrobe walkway twice the size of my bedroom
with the latest evening gowns and precious gems
a big king sized bed as big as half of my living room
and ten lovely maids serving me

wouldnt that just be lovely
and not forgetting
THE HUGE CASTLE THAT I CAN NEVER THOUGHT OF ENTERING

i think i would be the happiest girl in the world
leading a princess life where i dun have to work hard for anything
and i can buy EVERYTHING

but thats only imagination
and why is it called imagnation
because it is very very VERY hard to happen
the percentage of it happening is
0.1 PERCENT in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD
its amazing how
our imaginations can run so wild
thinking of things that can never happen
well
nothing comes easy right
the easiest thing to do is
go to sleep i guess and stop dreaming of this FANTASY
that can NEVER happen

so time to turn in peeplings
and oh ya
selamat hari raya(: