Being selfish is not a bad thing. but when your selfish includes pushing people down just to make yourself feel good, thats plain bitchy. I hate that. I used to be someone who dosen't bear grudges. This time round.

THINGS ARE DIFFERENT.

okay enough of all those stuff.

today is a normal sunday.

do housework.

on laptop.

sleep.

GO OUT!

bought. nyehehehhehehehhe. u dun have to know (;

yeap yeap.

so i am a happy girl(:

anyway. tomorow will be the moment of truth. *breathes in and exhale*

whatever the results is i have to accept it the way it is. i have to be professional though it means so much to me. it means alot to them too.

all the best people(: gd luck!

okay lah i am scared to death already.

bye peeplings(;

okay my laptop is alright now(:

happy happy.

act sing dance

sing dance act

dance sing act

i love all three(:

i don't mind doing this three activities all day.

i made the right decision i guess(:

anyway, look whose complaining now?

stop, you are in denial.

sense thats what u need.

okay i shall stop being a bitch

nites peeplings(:

and you brought it down to two. thank you(:

oh god.

i can't blog

i can't go online.

i can't on my laptop.

i am only contactable by phone.

anything please dun send any emails. i wont be able to check.

send me a msg okay(:

bye peeplings.

yesterday. was a fun fun fun day(: everything went smoothly alhamdullilah. except for the play. ): i am sorry that i wasnt there. i lost track of time. sorry guys ): we will all use today as a day to do the best that we can to prepare for tomorow. we can do it! jia you SA!

i cant wait for saturday. its going to be stage arts night. my first time ever performing for it. it will be the first ever performance the freshies would see. soo nervous. and my SA freshies are hyper dyper people! i hope they dress up(:

ill be meeting them later(: and ive missed them so much though its only been a week. nisah nisah, always missing people. okay then. i feel like buying white chocolate frap. maybe i should just wait for sunday(:

omgg. i better get going its already 2.25 am nites peeplings(:

lalallalalalallala. HAHAHHAHAH
okay okay so it was a slack day yesterday if u go by the dates lahh. my bag was super duper teeny weeny small since there isn't anything to bring to school(:

okay i am super duper mega extreme excited because today ill be meeting freshies for soundcard(: sooooo cool lahh. i am soooo looking forward to it(: but but but but you know i dun know what to wear. ):
ohh mannnnnnzsxszxzsxaz.. nevermind i shall figure out in the morning. so yeap. i am excited!

and and and and i shall not be bothered about something that i know that we know that you think you know but the truth is u don't know. HAHAHAHHA! yeap yeap. don't try to figure out. u will end up with the wrong answer!

okay lah i think i better shut up for now.
nites peeplings(:

yooohoooo! im back! nyehhehehe.

okay rehearsals for stage arts night is quite slack and we don't have enough time already. it's so hard to have everyone around for rehearsal's when we have our own lifes and most of us are unwell. ):
take care k guys.

*p/s: i wish some people would believe in us.

at the studio
so we had the 30 minutes slot for group 2 multicam iica rehearsal. It was freaking scary at first, but once we started to get comfortable everything went well. accept when i started talking and lost concentration.. haiyooo nisah nisah. but yeah. it was a very tense 30 minutes but fun time too. i think we are the most noisest group in the studio and i am glad that the shots were planned well so all we had to do was to figure out the commands(:

and we figured out we had to many shots...sooooo we are scrapping ard 5-10 of it. but we still have yet to discuss. the ica will be in 2 weeks time and i am already scared. =X
okay okay i better shut up! HAHAHHA.

YEAP YEAP.
THATS IT
happy happy(:
nites peeplings.

i love my blogskin(: soooo nice(:
it took me a while to find this blogskin. it wasn't really what i had in mind but yeah. i love it(:
i just needed a change from that purple bloggie. not that i am against purple or anything, i just felt like changing the skin. I even though of changing the link to something new but nah, i'm not.

today
well today was a day to take a break from everything. just sit at home, do housework, eat and maybe read a book. i did not manage to read a book as i had a huge headache that i couldnt stand till i just went to sleep. it was around 2 and 3 plus. slept till 6 plus woke up and just stone. LOL

from 8 plus i was watching mosters inc. and doing my work at the same time. monsters inc. is soooo cute. till now im still doing the video because i was digressing again! urgh nisah nisah.

so tomorow will be the start of the weeks of hell. it will be a hectic week. no time to relax at all. ill just have to try to keep up with everthing. the upcoming week. will be the submission of ica's and i have yet to start! RAIIIII! WHEN ARE WE STARTING ON PR??? die die die. okay i got to get back to video.

nights peeplings(:

dun push me.

i am capable of doing those stuff that
you can never imagine me doing.
push me to the side and ill do them.
really.

cause im on the verge of giving up.
and just prove u people right.
and i find myself so useless.
because i should be immune to all this.
since it has happen for a thousand times.
but coming from someone close.
its all a different thing.
maybe i need help. i need a jab.

but thank god for those people there.
who were willing to listen
always there with their arms open wide.
they just help me forget about me for a moment.
and just have fun.
they made me smile.
they stopped me from something u think ill never do.
thank you.

so i guess my life's fine.
and i shall not be paranoid.
soo night peeplings(:

every know how it feels to be brought down.

by the same topic

by different people

from their different perspective

time to time

again and again?

if you know how it feels?

think again

and if u think your life is sucky

THINK AGAIN!

okay.
i have very very very bad news. my laptop
apparently died.
today in the afternoon.

i can't freaking switch it on.
and i can't go 0nline to the internet for research purposes.
and i am afraid to tell my family.
GOD!
it died on its 2nd birthday!
how could it leave me just like that..
now i feel like crying
where am i suppose to get money to buy a new one?
how am i suppose to burst the news mum and dad?
i am gonna get killed.
really, i will die..
i ammm soooo not prepared for this.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
okay. i gtg. using school computer...
bye peeplings ):

camwhore sessions with loved ones always cheer me up(:
thank god for hazwan tan's laptop. LOL

aniwae yesterday we went for the auditions(:
it was at moving visual's office.
located at the house of jewel building;
located at lavender. LOL
it wasn't as scary as i thought.
it was just a camera and just one person inside.
but i dun think i did well..
i think i overreact ):
but nevermind its alright.
it was the experience that matters right(:

it ended late and we knew we couldnt make it on time for drama. ):
and since some of us have yet to eat
and it was 7....
WE WENT FOR DINNER(:
funny dinner i must say.
*tickles my heart* LOLOLOLOLOL

the workload is really piling up now.
and i can feel the stress coming babes.
omggg.

okay okay enough i better pay attention for PR.

btw today my friend raihana is crazy.
she says her hair smells better than usual
and she ask me to smell it -_-"""
wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

okay okay im excited for soundcard and dance later(:
so chiaos peeplings(:
its time for me to be geeky!

i need someone
to explain to me about everything
suddenly i feel so innocent
as in i feel as though i know nothing
and the feeling sucks like shit.
just someone, someone who knows whats in my mind
someone who has been through it
someone who understands
seriously
i want answers.

and ive been suffering this sharp pain near my eye.
my right eye especially):
so sad lahhhhh. ):

ouh ouh something random.
i came across taylor swift-you belong with me official video(:
sooo cuteeeeee. for those who love that song
go and check out the video. soo cute. super duper cute.

on a happy note,
i love the people around me(:
do you?

afternoon peeps(:

jealousy
is something that
i shouldn't feel.
because she is my friend.
i'm sorry, i really am.
i should give myself a big tight slap..
for being such a bitch.

ouh wells.
i'm bored to death this weekend
all i did was eat sleep do housework surf net and sleep.
oh gosh.

this is a song about a girl who loves a boy

who loves another girl.

invisible-taylor swift

She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile

She’ll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by

And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her

But you are everything to me

[Chorus:]

And I just wanna show you

She don’t even know you

She's never gonna love you like I want to

You just see right through me but if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

There’s a fire inside of you that can’t help but shine through

She’s never gonna see the light

No matter what you do

And all I think about is how to make you think of me

And everything that we could be

[Chorus]

Like shadows in a faded light

Oh we’re Invisible

I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize

I just wanna show you she don’t even know you

Baby let me love you let me want you

You just see right through me

But if you only knew me

We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile

yes, right now.

i feel invisible.

this lyrics and this song mean alot to me

wanna know the reason why i love taylor swift?

because i can relate to the songs that she wrote very well.

okay i'm super random. LOL

okay i got to some stuff now

so ill end this post here.

nights peeplings (:

love.

something u feel everyday.

something you go with the flow.

u can't think too much about it.

think about it

and u make yourself confused

and get it all wrong.

trust me. this time i'm right(:

nites peeplings(;

i realise to be well.
is to have a healthy body and healthy mind.
and i seem to be far from having a healthy body.
and i am going to do something abt it.
i really am.

and i decided to give a shot for musical.
yeap. it wont hurt right? (:
so ill be coming down to school later.
just to be audited.

btw
my first ever dance session as a freshie is super cool.
really
i made the right decision this time.

and yes.
i am tired
but guess what
maybe ill stay up a bit longer to chat and catch up.

and people please take care of yourselves
everyone is falling ill.
so please take care yeah.
rest well.

and my eyelids are only half open now so i better get going
nite peeplings(:

deepest fears.
i am sure everyone of us have fears.
and i think its very clear what i fear of.
though it i don't say it out loud.
my actions prove it all.
u guys might have noticed what my fear is
and u guys might not
but somehow somewhere sometime.
i know ive shown it.


sometimes i wish
i had someone special
someone to be there
just specially for me.
oh my god here i go again.
but really
it would be nice to have someone(:
a special someone.

as the days pass by.
my fear increases.
i fear i really fear.
i duno why i am thinking abt it seriously.

and and i got into stage arts dance(:
yes i am happy
but now i have to crack my head on how to manage
ill find a way out.
somehow.
i know i will
and i know i can manage
and i know i can juggle
and i know this sem and year i am gonna score okay. better than the past two sems.
i am gonna study.

and my first upcoming ica is on 25th may.
lecture 1-4
so yeah
i know i can score.
JIA YOU!
thats all i got to say nites peeplings(;

i don't know what i am thinking
i don't know whether i am sane.
oh my goodness.

all i know is.
right now.
i need a massage! HAHAHA
seriously my back and neck hurts ):

and and i am so sad because i have no money to shop!
F21 dresses are soooo cute lahhhhh.
kawaiiii!
but but i no money ):
i want to cryyy.
and and my msn background of the convo very ugly
i dun like
and oh my god
look at how much i am whining how much i am complaining i better stop.
i need help
someone please bring me back.
the old contented nisah.
oh my gosh.
okay okay stop it stop it.
ill say nites peeplings(:

honestly i duno what i just blogged! LOL

since wednesday.
so many things have happen.
thursday was a beautiful day(:
friday was better
and today was awesomezszszxs

thursday was dance auditions.
and i dun think i am getting through
i did worst than last year ):
i din know why my leg couldnt co-ordinate on that day.
when it was an important thing to me
urghh
but overall it was a good experience once again.
and lepaks with soundcarders is always fun(:
love you people.

friday.
was labour day.
and happy ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO EDWYNA AND JULIAN!
hope u guys last forever(:
ouh ouh. and it was a drip out of town to johor, kota tinggi waterfall(:
it was cold and lovely
it was nice to know how it feels to be behind the waters
it was amazing to find out how slippery the rocks can get.
it was an amazing day out with my lovely family(:
i love my family alot alot alot(:

today.
was helping out at stage arts drama audition.
i guess they are fun bunch(:
very dramatic very up for anything.
den went to tekka with them to check out some prices
and then camwhored at ILUMA!
den heaeded home(:
and yes i love my stage arters.
oh my gosh...
nisha stop repeating again and again!

and
did i tell u?
well let me tell u again
patience is a virtue.

and sometimes people forget to look around
to find those who care and can be a listening ear.
and probably they just dun see them at all.

and and u know what
i have been getting this sharp pain near my eye!
ya. and its bugging me!
yeah thats what i have got to say.
because i am so lazy to explain in details LOL!
nites peeplings(: