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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
TO EVERYONE LIVING ON EARTH AND ON MOON!!
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LUVES..HANISAH

"P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You)"
[verse 1]
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

i m so into this song..luv it so much..
muacks..love the lyrics..
all of u shud listen to it..
nites(:

todae...
it was damn boring..
nothing interesting...
juz cold..
k lah..i dun have the mood to blog..
gd nite..

i juz dun understand..
y everything is merepek to u...
i understand i m juz a nuisance to u..
n i shud juz take a step back n let u win in everything..
i understand..everything i sae is wrong...
n everything u sae is right..
i will now let u win in everything..
n juz die on the inside..
while being alive on the outside..
i understand everything now..
or maybe i juz dun..
onli u do right??

i m juz a useless n irritating freak..
i m juz a nuisance..
juz so stupid..
juz too dumb..
to understand..
y everything i do is merepek..
thank u..for making me realise my mistake..
iidiotic n useless me signing off..

i hate the phrase" ko jgn merepek lah"

nites...
todae..
went to joo chiat compleks..
returned my mums passport..

hmm..den went to the makan place there..
saw an accident...
the motorist was trying to avoid the women hu was jaywalking...
he got unlucky and feel of his bike...
he fractured his leg as i could see from far tat he could not move it..
the women hu was jaywalking i think got hit by the side..
so yar...the women was ok..but she couldn't stop crying....
den the pillion rider..was ok..he was comforting his fren...
so sad rite..
hiaz..
since everyone was ok...
there was no need for my help so i went off...
five minutes later..
heard the ambulance siren..
so pityful lah the rider..

nemai lah..hope he is fine..
den went to tampines mall giordano....
bought a new pair of jeans....
but send it for altering...TOO LONG!!
nemai lah..next week i will have to take it...
hmm..den bought ice cream...
went home by cab...
den..
dadidadidadi..
i slept...ZZZzzzzz..
woke up at six..
dadidadidadi...
my FAV UNCLE CAME!!
at 9.30 pm...
he was my onli uncle which colud really make me laugh....
so funi lah he...
i tell u...u sit with him..
can die..
die of laughing arh..
but his leg was swollen...
duno wat happen..
nemai lah..
toktoktoktok
laughlaughlaughlaugh...
he went home..at 11.15pm..
den...
went online...
den start to blog...
yup..
now is 12.30am..
i m now going to my sleep agn..
nites!!

dear mister "N"
i am so sorie...
i ignored u..i really do...
i ignored u coz i juz felt uncomfortable...
the way u treat me as a fren was like MORE than a fren..
u treated me well...
u understood me very well...
u gave me present on my birthdae...
but i juz ignored u...coz i was afraid...
i was afraid of falling for u...
when my heart was juz for mister "M"
i ignored u...coz i juz coulldn't stand all the teasing...
i juz couldn't stand it...
i ignored u coz...i juz didn't want to give u hopes...
i juz felt tat u wanted more...
u wanted us to be more than juz frenz...
i m sorie....
now u dun talk to me animore...
u juz seem to be quiet...
i m so sorie mister "N"
juz so sorie...
can sories build our friendship agn??
juz give me a chance to make up for ignoring u...
PLEASE???

well..
todae..was a tiring dae deh...
i woke up at 8.30 am..
bath...
eat...
vacuum the house as usual...
den...
11 am..got into outing dress...
11.30am..got out of house..
GUESS WHERE I M GOING???
JOHORE BAHRU...
onli to take my mum's dress...
tell u both of us slept on the bus till woodlands checkpoint from rochor..
my head was on my mums shoulder..
n my mums head was on the right side of my head...
SO TOUCHING RITE...
den..
reach larkin...
mum went for prayers...
i waited at the shop...
played game on my mums phone...
coz i was damn bored lah...
den...
mum came back...
went to eat mee rebus first...
SUPER NICE MAN!!!
1st tyme i finish a bowl of mee rebus...
my mum was like...
"nisah..u finish the mee rebus?? u neva finish mee rebus b4..."
i juz laughed..
took the dress..
dadidadidadi...
reach home...
haven't even change...
dad ask us out to mustafa centre...
i was like YEY!! WE R GOING OUT AGN!!
mum was like DO WE HAVE TO????
LOL
but the three of us still went..
dadidadidadi...
nothing interesting happened..
went home by train...
mum kept on laughing...
i oso laughed lah...
coz dad lah..he made up funi stories..
nemai...went out of train at hougang...
coz dad SUPER HUNGRY..me too..hehex..
it was like 10.30pm...
nemai lah..
i ate fried kyaw teow....NICE...
shared with mum...
so swit rite...
den..
finish eating..went home..
by cab....
the taxi drver was like SIR WHERE R U GOING??
dad was like COMPASSVALE ST SENGKANG...DO U KNOW WHERE??
the taxi driver was like IN SINGAPORE RITE??
I BURST OUT LAUGHING!!!
den....
went home lor..
nothing special..
hmm..
but really tiring dae lah...
oh ya..

when i was going home from the woodlands checkpoint from johore...
i took 950 den 161...
so UNLUCKY...
i sat beside sum1 hu has my previous phone which i lost lah...
NOKIA 6111...
REMIND ME OF 26NOV..THE DAE I LOST MY PHONE..SOBSOB
so SAD RITE!!

AIYAH!!
nemai lah..i lost phone..muz live without it lor..
sianz...so sad rite...so dumb of me lah...
k aniwae..
nitesnites guyz...
ZZzzzzz......
smilex(:

sorie deh..
yesterdae neber blog..i forgot u see..
hiaz..sian arh..

todae..as usual stay at home n take care of my two nephews...
everything went well but it is damn boring lah...
nothing interesting happen...sad

aniwae..i kept singing tis verse..
pelita..
hatimu disini..
bersama memori..
ku sambut dengan gembira riang dan ceria..

but i juz duno the song man...
so sad rite..haiz sianz..
aniwae...i duno y lah...
but when i heard tat song played on the radio...
automatically every memori tat we shared..
came back into my mind..
the fun times we shared..
the smilez..
the laughters..
i duno y i juz can't do wat everyone ask me to...
maybe it juz takes time..
i m sure it will be gone soon enuf..
i juz have to like keep myself busy..

but i will juz neva forget the tears tat i cried..
juz bcoz i cared..
our friendship got drifted apart..
the more i cared..the more it drifted..
i juz didnt want u to know abt it coz..
i really treasured the friendship tat we shared..
i was not willing to lose a friendship juz bcoz of sumthing small..
i juz wan my fren back..
how i wished i could turn back time..
but will it be worth it even if i do tat..
can i like really stop it from happening..
i dun know..

maybe it was my fault..
i juz couldnt hide it properly..
i let it out bit by bit..
my actions..
spoke a thousand words..
i dun know whether u could juz see tru me..
or got to know it from a fren..

tat msg..
hurt me..
i know hu told u to send tat msg..
i know hu told u to..
it did affected me fren..
i lost my respect of tat friedship tat we build at tat moment..
it was juz too much for me to handle..
i didnt cry..
i juz felt nothing..
i duno y..

enuf!!
i m juz dead!
it is juz closed..
no more..
juz no more..

shit!! i forgot to register with the alumni!!
argh!!
omg..wat the hell...
how..
i neva register sia..
so sad..sob2
haiz nemai leh..
i juz come back for red cross things lor..
smilex!!!

NO TITLE
i've been blaming u
4 everything tat juz went wrong
for all my mistakes tat i won't admit

I'm so sorie, i pity u
b'coz you've done nothing
but you've done sumthing..so sick!!

CHORUS#
wat can i do, 2 really forget u
wat can i do, 2 make u love me
wat can i do, to be held in ur arms
wat can i do, rite now

everytyme tat i
open my eyes
i wished u were by moi side
always protecting me

i've been through the dark
n through the light
but juz noone by moi side
i wished for sum1 to share
joy n pain!!..with me!! yeh

REPEAT CHORUS#

i'm still here wondering
thinking aimlessly
i'm still here wondering
thinking all abt u
i'm still here wondering
thinking wat you're doing
i'm still here wondering
thinking wat to do

REAPEAT CHORUS#
wat can i do..2morow
wat can i do..tonight

tis was my second song for u
it was written on 17may2007
once agn..
its amazing how i went on riting songs..
when i shud have been studying..
juz wished tat i didnt had hopes on u..
if not i wouldn't be regreting it or hurt so much..
thinking of u..
juz make me kill more braincells for no reasons..
i feel sorie for saeing sorie to u..
coz u juz dun deserve tat sorie..
but the main thing is..
i still love u..
n i duno why..
even after tat bloody msg..

LOST IN MY HEART
for the first tyme
i fall in love
its a feeling
i can't explain

does he know
i wished he knew
but yet agn
i wish he dun

CHORUS#
i wanna tell him
tat i love him
but yat agn
i dun wan 2
i wanna forget him
but i juz can't
b'coz i luv him..too much..

is he the guy
i'm looking for
will he be
rite by my side

is he really
the one for me
i wanna know rite now

REPEAT CHORUS #
b'coz i luv him too much(x2)

tis is the first song i wrote juz for u on 12 may 2007
amazing isn't it..
riting for u this song..
was a huge mistake..
i juz feel sad..
coz i feel for u n not another person..

indeed u have hurt me so much..
but still the more u hurt me..
my luv fer u juz grew even stronger...how i wish u were reading tis blog of mine
but in fact..
u dun even know it exists..

heyhey...
i m back to updating my blog!..
change blog skin liao...nice rite...i know..
so emo..
EMO=HOT!!

i tell u i met 7 japanese gals...
but couldnt have realli the time to interact with them deh..
sobsob..
during the camp...i juz went ard stealing everyone's flag lah...
its like so called my job..hehe..

i met hid during campfire..
she super low at tat point of tyme..
coz she came straight after training..
so sad rite..
nemai lah..but she super happy..
coz i gave her a spongebob..
she said she wanted to have a spongebob to hug..

if u love sumbody could it be tis strong
i would fight to win our love will conquer all
wouldnt risk my love..even juz one nite..
our love will stay in my heart..

i wonder how
i wonder why
i wonder where they are
the daes we had songs we shared together..

sumhow during tis two parts...
i juz couldnt help it..the sadness n the memories tat we shared..
i juz felt like breaking down at tat point of tyme..
but i juz acted strong pushing away my tears back..
i juz didn't want u to know..it was u i was crying for..
it was all bcoz of u..

sumhow during one of the parts..
u felt me twin..
i squeezed ur hand..
u juz turned n i saw wat u were feeling at tat same point of tyme..
amazing isn't it..
tat is a reason y..we are fated to meet..
i love u twin..

i hated u coz i loved u..
i loved u coz hated u..
i juz want tis feeling to fade away..
coz it is of no use now..
coz it is juz over btwn us..

pictures for my prom nite on the 16 of november 2007...i look damn stupid n ugly lar as always...but i will neva forget the preety faces of my frenz....tis is some of the pictures..love dem loads!

dora n me...
me n miss ang..geog! me n mr wu..he very nice u know..
me n mr firman..i hate him!

me n azizi..
me n lin...see shahshah behind??
me n iqah.....
omg...shahshah n me..i loook like badut mann..
me n jannath...shes a dancing queen man!

merishah n me...
me n maths teacher..mrs yoga
hiu min n me..
kelly n me...

me n jinjin
joclyn n me.......
me n vivian..love her loads
fauzianna n me....besties always..
mashitah n me...how will i ever forget her...

me before...
me after..with shades
crazy pei shan n me
me n sally......
me n mrs tan(form teacher)

prom rox!

yesterdae..was prom...

i had real fun guys..total fun..fun like i had neva had fun b4..

i juz wish i could be more decent..haha lol...

den they ask us dance..dance arh like theres no tomorow...

alot of them nave dance..when there is tyme to dance..dun dance..when its tyme to be serious..they dance...i juz dun understand this kinda ppl lah..

it was super crazy lah..first when we report in class at 4.30(although i was late),

we took tons of photo while marking attendance,,,when i sae tonnes..its TONNES!!

den we had to go to hall..to collect our graduating cert..hmm..so boring lah..

one by one go up take the cert like stupid like tat..

principal talk..we oso talk..so chldish of us lah..

although we look like hunks and beauties..haha lol..

i tell u..everyone look so matured lah...

the gals look drop dead gorgeous...

the guys look like super smart and handsome huks..

although cannot see their six packs..they look HOT!!!

for me..i wasn't tat preety deh...usual of me...

den after tat we had a biig dinner..with the powerpoint slides tat i made with yanjing..

credits for yanjing for doing it...

credits to me for editting it..

after tat..MORE PHOTOS!!!

we tyme we took photos were like neva ending..

till the teachers had to shoo us up to the hall again for the dance..haha lol..

i tell u...i dance like mad lah...frm sexy..to hip hop..to rnb..

the dance was like super funny lah coz most of them didnt dance..

well i can tell u tat i dance like the whole tyme...

den half way through...everone started dancing..

they ddamn slow lah..

coming to the end of the dance...

i hurt sum1 heart...i totally didnt mean wat i said ok..

he take it to heart...now i m like feeling supper guilty lah..

my heart super pain lah..i feel guilty...

i have hurt sum1 hu i have treated as a gd fren all this four years...

i feel so sad coz i juz got to know it todae...i m so mean lah..

haiz..de after tat..we went home...me not knowing tat i have hurt sum1 along the wae...

but i finally realise todae i would really love to apologise to him....

sorie...azizi..for hurting u..i seriously didnt mean it ok...

so sorie azizi....

i hope tat u will forgive me....

hey hey hey..

woohoo..todae was last paper for the 0s..

so glad to have finished it..indeed todaes paper was managable..

now i m free...

looking forward to prom on the 16 nov....

i wont tell u wat i m wearing..coz it will be a surprise..

i will upload the pictures the dae after prom..

i hope i will look preety..

arh..sianz...

now i m juz bored...

super bored..

i feel like taking my Os agn..haha lol..

at least i can burn tyme by studying..

memories of him juz keep getting into my head...

i duno how to make myself busy...i juz duno how..

so i really hope sum1 can suggest me a way...

sorie..

u dun have to tell me..coz i know tat i was a fool to have said all those things to u..

i could juz have said sorie but i let my pride in the way...

how i wish tat i could turn back tyme n apologise but its juz too late...

n it is my lost for not saeing sorie at tat point of tyme..



but tat msg u sent on the 4 nov btwn 1.15 am to 1.45 am..

it really hurt me so much...

i juz couldnt take it animore..i juz broke down at tat point of tyme..

u said it as if u didn't wan to be my fren at all..



is wat i m asking for too hard???

its juz a fren tat i want...not for u to like me or wat..

i juz wanna be frenz with u..



after writing tat msg to u..i feel sorie...

coz i juz added more salt to ur wound..

i shud be by ur side...helping u..

not killing u..



i juz dunno wat will happen if i see u...

will i sae sori....breakdown....or juz fight?

i realli duno..i hope i will be able to juz ignore..


now i m juz worried..whether u r ok or not..

coz i feel tat i have hurt ur feelings by sending tat msg..

i m so sorie..i didn't know wat i was thinking..or doing..

sorie sorie sorie..

urm todae i sit at home do nothing...super sian lah...wait for mum...coz wanna go to fareast plaza..buy the prom dress..muz buy todae coz she weekdae not free...wait for her very long lor...super sian lah..she come back home at 6.45 pm...she den have her prayres n we will be on our way to FAR EAST PLAZA....buy my prom dress...woohoo...i love my mum...love my twin...love my family...love my frenz n love everyone ard me coz they brightened up my life...i juz love dem lots...love dem...love u ....love u...i will tell u abt the dress tat i buy tomorow...
k so signing off for now...luves endohitoe/hanisah

town trip..with twin..

oh..todae i went out twin....go town...go far east shopping centre n far east plaza...go find my prom dress...she super kind lah follow me along go there...den she wear heels mah...her leg pain lah...i wear palm shoe mah so i walk faster den her..hid learn tat going out with me is juz an embarrasement...coz i will juz be super noisy n do silly stuff..yar...we walk like super far...den she like show me her baby photo lah...so cute!!! den it was tyme for us to get going so yar we went home n tok on the phone after reaching home...so yar it maybe a simple dae but all the memories will stick with me foreva...love my twin loads...

plaza sing...

haha..suprisingly..i went to plaza singapura right after the blog juz now..lol..
so funny lah coz i tot todae i would be juz staying at home..hey my twin blog tat she created my blog...well yes she did..she created my blog..i love my blog bcoz its by my twin..i went plaza sing..walkwalk..until very tired..den hungry go eat secret recipe..sorie twin i didn't save for u...(burp)..sorie k..nvm..next tyme i treat u k..den..went home lor..went home...bath..go to comp den rite this blog lah dumb..haha lol..eh very late liao..super tired so good nite twin n good nite blog..c ya soon..loves hanisah

sian lah...

haiya...todae is super boring...stay at home do nothing juz like yesterdae..haiz sian sian sian...super sian...

juz wish i could bastard sum1 todae...muahahaha..but couldn't coz not outside mahs...i juz wish i had sum1 to tok to at home..haiz..sian sian sian..

wat the hell lah..still got one bloody paper to go..which is poa paper 1 lah..haiyo..sian arh..

but nevermind muz get over n done with this n my Os will be over..woohoo yeh..i m gona be free..from all the mizeries tat i have..juz wan to look forward to my new life n forget all the painful memories tat i have experienced in secondary school life n bring along with me all the happy memories..

juz feel real sad cozz i m gonna miz every1 so yar..guys..i m sad to be leaving u guys..boohoo...so sad....

we all muz start to meet up k guys course really i dun wanna lose the bond tat we shared during the past 4 years..i really love u so much guys..

i juz wan you guys to understand tat there is nothing we will get from being a hypocrite..seriously..can't we like juz get together n forget the past? the future seems to be so bright..i juz wish every single one of u were here right beside me..having fun..just like we used to..

arh..forget all the nonsense lah ok...life in the past juz hurts so much..i juz dun wanna go through it agn..now its juz tyme to party..party...party..

prom coming..i duno wat to wear arh!!! any one got long dress??
juz lend me for one night....please...

guys sae i m mean..gals sae i m right..i juz duno what i was doing ok seriously..i juz felt numb..ur sories were nothing..it was juz nothing..it didn't hurt me or anithing..but what i know is everything has ended..before it even started..but wat i realise was..i get stronger after u hurt me...i juz got more confident..

nvm lah all tat crap..
ehi still have tat bloody poa paper 1 on the 13nov..argh..very lazy to mug liao..juz wanna relax and have fun..but can't coz still got paper mah..so yar..

i m like really having moodswings this daes..i can be really happy but the next moment i can be very sad..i juz duno y..sumtimez i even feel lost...i duno wat to do but yesterdae was fun...it was jln raye tyme..woohoo..had to go home early yar so quite sad bah..tomorow nothing to do..maybe juz stay at home and study lor...so yar i tok tou next tyme yar blog...i tok to u as if u understand like tat..haha lol...

I LOVE MY TWIN!!!

haha..
todae my twin create my blog..
first tyme on my blog lor..haha lol..
thx twin for helping me create tis blog..

love u loads..
love u..
love u..
love u..

Twin here (:

ah yes i finally created hanisah a blog!
hahaha.
so this is where she's going to tell me her stories (:

HANISAH LOVES ME (:

loves ;D