After all that has happened. I think i've become one of them.

To be honest, the only thing that i loved about myself in the past is bring too trusting with other people. That was the only thing that i love and I think I think it's fine if i get hurt again by the same people or whatsoever. I just want to trust you.

I really do.

What makes one think that the other party will be honest? We wait. and wait and wait. That's all we do. Why do we choose to wait when we can create our own? Because we are too lazy to change what can be done. We are just waiting for things to come flying to our laps. Well guess what Hanisah Hasim, it ain't going to happen. If you don't get up now, it won't happen. Yes true. Believing in fate and destiny is great but think about it. What if your destiny was to get up and do it. What if your fate was to do this.

okay great. Now I'm debating with myself. I need to get some rest for work tomorow.

Nites peeplings(;

heylow(;

i miss blogging. i always had so much to say so much to tell. but not now.

i've got pretty back on track on everything.

why am I not saying anything. Sorry for the lack of update. Bye.

Okay. time for updates yaw.

Yes I know i've been disappearing alot. well. I do have reasons but i just cant be bothered to explain.

okay its not that i cant be bothered. i don't know where to start explaining.

But if you think i've been disappearing alot. Then for this coming 6 months, i'll be disappearing even more. yes. im going for ipp.

Im not gonna miss school so much though. since rai is attached to the same company as i am(:

I will be seen in school. maybe once in a while.

im starting ipp in like 1 day but im feeling abit feverish. maybe because im nervous or maybe im just ill.

okay yaw. wish me luck for ipp. (:

nites peeplings(;

wow. its been that long huh.

life's been great. peaceful

though sometimes kinda chaotic.

I like it this way.

updates?

nah. save it for another time yeah.

just know that im doing well.

peace out.

nites peeplings(:

people.

Different people have different personalities. that includes me and you.

It feels good to know what are the strengths and weaknesses of the people around you.

As in you get to know them better.

I have to applaud some people for having this two abilities

The first one is someone who gives you pain at one moment and gives you the antidote at the next.

This is the kind of people that you can barely get angry at.

The other ability is being a bad boy/girl but with a great big heart on the inside. I think this people are very warm people even though they don't treat you nicely up front.

It's amazing how one can learn so much from the other people around them. Sometimes to the extend that they act like them. Really.

I find all this manipulation amazing. Lets not put it so harsh. I will call it gifts.

And I think i've met some people with this gifts in my life. thank you(:

this is it. my favorite of the show.

it will be the end if one of them develops real feelings for each other.

argh. i hate reality shows.

probably im just a dumb girl who likes to create and live in my own world.

But hey at least im happy.
it just dosent give me pain

Days after exams seems great to me.

Everything is falling into place now.

Now that everything is right for me.

I shall sit down. Lay back and just chill.

breathe in and let go.

suck it up and move on.

-kaye dallane

what do this three girls have in common?

In their series. They are the ones with the will to fight on.

Even in the toughest conditions ever.

my Favorite?

Makino Tsukushi(:

aja aja fighting!

i love this(:

teehee. exams are finally over.

2 months of freedom.

6 months of attachment

8 months of not meeting them ):

secrets. are not meant to be known.

so let's hide them.

we are in the same boat aren't we?

we all have difficult life's.

but hey.

we are all together, you get what i mean(:

sometimes.

i really feel im wierd.

maybe i am..

shit

i think so. i should start protecting it again. (:

and musical was great. too bad i forgot to bring my camera.

oh wells, i'm watching again later so i shall bring my camera later(:

and i'm a happy girl(:

so sweet right?

i know

The Notebook is like soooo sad ):

but

today felt great.

really.

sometimes the truth hurts.

so what?

at least it gets me moving isn't it.

I got sick of lies.

When will u get sick of it.

a thousand lies cant make up for one truth.

Nor can a lie cover things up. it will just make it worst.

yes. blog all u want. if u want to play this game. then lets play it.

Coz right now i am fine. healthy and ready to play. anything.

you don't have to go the extra mile for a smile.

just take a step forward. close your eyes.

breathe in deep and let go of everything.

you will feel much better.

this picture is not from google. I took it with my camera.

thank you Peirce.

be with the ones who understand and appreciate you.

be with the ones who are honest with you.

forgive those who aren't

and move on.

because there are only three words that summarizes life.

it . moves . on

this is my story.

but no matter how long i take a nap.

i will end up being more tired and restless.

i'm sorry but i have to let go.

its time i build a wall.

i am just not able to catch up with u guys anymore.

i give up.

i am sorry.

and thank u for being my friends.

i must learn. i must try. I can't be like this forever can i?

I have to be less careless.

I have to be more observant.

I have to shut up more.

wait.

its not i have to shut up more.

its just i have to shut up. yeah.

nope. I am not shooting anyone.

i am talking to myself. please do not think its u.

u know something. its true. but i dun believe the signs. its just my characteristics. (:

deep inside:

They are also likely to hide or bend their own true feelings in order to bring peace with a group and to make others like them. Sometime this results in them not really knowing what their true feelings are because they are trying to make everyone happy. Other people can see this and Libras have earned themselves a reputation for being indecisive, they simply do not want to hurt anyone's feelings or cause disorder or friction in a situation. This spills over inside the person and many times, Libras have difficulty making decisions. Inside, the Libra is very insecure, they suffer from a lack of self confidence, they are always searching for something to complete them. This is another reason why they are social butterflies, it is an unconscious attempt to find the missing peace through other people. By trying to appease other people all the time, Libras don't really know who they are inside. Libras desperately need love and approval, they will do the favors that people ask and and have a hard time saying 'no' or 'I'm too busy' in order to prove how nice they are, this gradually builds up resentment and negative self esteem issues inside. Libra's indecisiveness is caused by fear, their fear that a wrong decision will make everything come crashing down around them and cause turmoil in their lives. Life is not like that and the Libra that acknowledges the fact that life has ups and downs will be less emotionally wound up, not so hard on themselves and as a result, they will be a much happier person.

decision making:

Pressure to make a decision is an instant stress-maker for most Libras. If it comes down to the possibility of hurting someone's feelings – it is no surprise that this sign may insert a little white lie or two. For instance, if you want an honest opinion about a proposal or idea at the job – stray from the opinion of a Libra, as if they don’t think it is a true winner – they may pacify you anyways.

liar? :

If a Libra tells too many little lies and a situation transforms into something they did not want to take place – they well fess up to their actions – as back and forth bickering and deception eventually becomes too tiring for a Libra to continue.

Love: we think about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we don’t have it, we search for it and when we discover it, we don’t know what to do with it. It is our one source of pleasure and pain. It’s an important word … easy to spell, difficult to define and impossible to live without.

so true.

omgee(:

thank god.

thank you and sorry.

bye.

wow. what a post! HEHE

Nope mr blogger

i still love you.

It's just that i needed more space.

and i am not abandoning u for sure.

still my number 1 teehee.

but yeah.

try to find me okay(:

its time for a change.

and this time. this change is going to be permanent

anyway let me list down the phrases that made my week.

curry in the bellybutton

chocolate slows down your brain

huh? what is a control station?

torn? horn? THORN!

ring above my head. HALO u mean?

for those who made this phrases funny. thank u. lol

anyway this is a qoute by my lecturer. it was funny when he said it.

you don't fall in love, you GROW in love.

-mr robert tan

entrepreneurship lecturer

oh boy tell me something new

today felt great

who knew

vivocity was a good place to relax.

I did not regret reaching earlier than the rest.

it was a time for me to have some space.

it was nice. peaceful.

and then i joined them

it was a refreshing getaway.

i wish i could have stayed longer

hanging out with the old people.

it actually brings back old memories

and it was time to make new ones

thanks guys

it was a great help to me.

and if its a fight that u are asking for, bring it!

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never

Albert Camus

this qoute is so true.

because someone told me its true

and i did experience it a few times

but i just din learn my lesson.

oh nisah, just when will u wake up from this dream?

3 reports 3 presentations 1 event

in this upcoming week.

thats life. so i guess ill just have to go through it!

JIA YOU!

i can do this(:

if only you were here to encourage me, i would go further and faster

if u look a little closer

i said leave, but all i really want is you

to stand outside my window throwing pebbles

screaming.

"I'm in love with you!"

i tend to do this alot.

i lie a lot and expect people to understand what i really mean.

when noone even cares.

i apologize if my honesty has created a chaos. between all of us.

right now. i feel so upset, angry, frustrated and confused.

i don't know what to say or what to feel or what to think

If being honest was my mistake. i am sorry. i won't say anything again.

i understand that it was all a misunderstanding.

please dun explain further.

i just want to forget about this event.

why nisah why?

why must u purposely pick fights with people around u?

what are u trying to do?

what the hell is wrong with you?

what is happening to you?

tell me what you want!

because honestly. I don't know.

A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous

i still haven't had it yet.

oh well.

sometimes its hurts so much.

like it did just now.

a stab in it.

ouch

yes i am a contradicting person.

i can tell you i am happy when i am the total opposite.

i can tell you to let go when all i want is for u to fight and keep on holding me.

if you could understand me so much

why can't you tell how i feel

and if you knew her so well

why did u even agree to let her go and not fight back.

for this i hate you.

i am sorry.

Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one

well i guess we couldn't fulfill the second part of the sentence.

it didn't feel so bad.

i could have always enjoyed with them another time or day.

i am just so stubborn sometimes.

sometimes the unexpected places can give u calmness and a chance to self-reflect

and it did for me.

thank god.

and today.

she made up for it. so i am a happy kid.

COTTON ON(:

p.s. i know u did. ♥

yes. continue building it.

because its the best thing u have ever done in your life nisah.

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinnin Upside Down.
Shes Smiling And Standing Tall to The Outta World,
Shes Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.

She Appears So Happy to Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not to Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
Shes Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
Shes Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
one Touch, & She'll Flinch
one Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
one Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down

She Trusts Noone, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes Noone, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep to Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong

I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...
Is Me.

must you try to make me lose in every single thing?

i don't understand.

does it make u happy that i lose?

and trust.

all i wanted was for you to have a lil understanding

all i wish for is for u not to compare me with him/her

all i want is for u to think in my shoes.

all i wish is for u to open up

all i want is for u to stop hurting me

all i want is feel me.

its so hard to be a filial daughter isn't it?

Torn between two. who do you choose? the one that you love or the one that loves you?

who would you choose?

for me. I would choose the one i love.

because i believe that giving love is the most joyful thing one can ever do.

and i wished u knew.

read this again and u might get it.

the change is always the phase one has to go through.

and i have to go through change.

P.S guess what.

okay i have something to say. i have to say it because its annoying me if i dun say it.

it might get people mad but i don't care.

i hate the opposite sex.

i don't know what they are thinking.

when they think or look at girls. they look for their bustline and how big their butt is.

are we just things for you to fuck with?

is girls = sex to you guys?

i just hate it.

sorry no offence.

ouh gosh. i feel so much better.

btw. this is my blog so if you don't like what you are reading just don't come back k.

thanks!

i don't know how you did it. but u brought me back from the dead. P.S. guess what.

i guess we all needed it.

RATED R!

i love every single one of them. photos at fb(:

and thank you for the outing(:

now that 2009's gone, i miss it all.

but i guess im looking forward to 2010.

more exciting things will happen.

okay time to spice up my life peeplings(:

we can still have it all(: