Hanisah Hasim

sumtimes..
i juz feel lonely..
as in
at home
where i onli have walls to tok to..

how i wished i had siblings
abang and kakak is always busy
and they always want to crave the path otu for me..
why can't they let me crave my own path
let me do wat i wan my way..
why muz it be their way..
i really wish i had more freedom to do things dat i wan..

even wat bus i wanna take to skol they have the sae...
i dun have a sae at all..
clothes dat i buy..its muz be their choice not mine..
i see others going shopping in their own..
me??
WINDOW SHOPPING ON MY OWN
n dats it
i juz wish i have more sae..

kakak and abang is alwasy scolding me
where did i go wrong??
FYI..kakak and abang wan to change me..but change urself first..
im sorie
but
when are u going to turn to him???
how long are u going to wait???
sampai hari kiamat??
sampai hari yg matehari terbit dari arah yg sebelah..
dat will be too late kakak and abg
start now please..
HOW I WISHED U WERE READING MY BLOG..
READING TIS POST
i wanna have a sae in my life
in wat i wan to wear
how i wanna do things
im so sorie
i apologise if tis a rude post..
but i juz had to let it out
n abg
u r always shouting at me..
giving dat smirk on ur face wheneva i ask u questions..
I KNOW IM DUMB
I KNOW IM STUPID
I KNOW IM DEAF
N DATS WHY I ASK U RITE???
THE SMARTER ONE
DEN FOR WAT I HAVE A ABG FOR??
ROTTING??
im sorie im really sorie..
but the way u treat me is like shit
even my frenz dun treat me dat way

kakak..
i juz wished..
u gave me more freedom
u are always asking me do things ur way..
hu knows my way is betta
but i wont know
coz u dun allow me to try
i need my family back..
i wan the happiness back
i wan us to sit in front of the tv together..
all five of us..
laughing together..
i really miss those times..

n abg..fyi i really missed those tomes u wreseled me when we were young..
we were so close
and now
we are like enemies
no worst den dat..

i miss laughter in the house..
i miss my old kakak and abg..
but i guess..
all i can do is..
nothing..
jzu follow wat they wan me to do..
let them have the sae
i have no right to disobey

i miss those times