Hanisah Hasim

being numb isnt a way out.
being numb will just lead you to the same exact position
u dont want to end up being at or doing.
which is an ultimate breakdown.

i hear so many voices.
each voice saying a different thing.
i don't know what i should do.
which voice should i listen to
which voice i should follow.

right now i can't even trust myself.
because whenever i start trusting myself
and doing what i think is right.
everything will go haywire.
when i say everything
i mean everything.

and being stuck in the same situation over and over again sucks
if only a machine was created to tell how we really feel about something
i would have bought like hundreds of them.
i feel like banging my head against the wall.
for being so indecisive and confused.
oh wells. i should just forget about it.

i hate IM.
because u dun know how the other person behind the other computer screen
truly feels.
and their their facial expression remains unknown.
so u will never know if they were being sarcastic or just replying to u
for the sake of replying.
but i am sooo addicted to IM because its the one of the ways i use
to keep in contact with my friends.

and if u realise its always me who loses out.
i guess i am born a loser huh.

but u know what.
maybe i should try to win frm now on.
because i am always giving in
its time for me to stop giving in and make my stand.
no more giving in
no more miss nice girl
okay. ill end it here.
im in school btw.

chiaos!